New Computer & Clean Room

Hello~!!!!

I'm now blogging from my new laptop. I absolutely hated it at first. It had Windows 8 (never used it) and everything about it annoyed me. The only thing that I saw as a good point was the bigger screen so I could watch my Oppa's better *die-hard fangirl* There are like all these apps on the startscreen and I couldn't find anything I needed. But now I'm somewhat more used to it. I figured you could just remove useless apps from the startscreen and now it has gotten much more organised and I like the extra application, it makes you able to browse better on the internet without opening too much tabs. You can easily see your new msn, hotmail and fb messages even when you don't have it open in your internet tabs. It's also quicker. There is also a very cool app for painting (which seems very real) and games and for the weather. But maybe it's better my laptop died, it wouldn't even react when I put a disc or SD-card in it. It was stupid, I love that I can now put the SD-card in my laptop when I want to upload photo's quickly and my cable is like always playing hide-and-seek.

Yesterday I talked with a friend who also likes Japanese clothing styles and such. But she mentioned a site for gothic lolita wigs that also has a large amount of other wigs suited for other styles. She already has a blonde gyaru wig ordered from there. And those wigs are so gorgeous, makes me want one too. But they are kind of pricey. I made a list of the ones I liked and are suited for Mori-Kei and Mori-Gyaru. I'll be uploading it tomorrow or so. 

Today I did a little bit of cleaning since I lost an important USB-stick. *shame on me* It looks a lot better and cleaner now. Although I didn't find it sadly enough. Tomorrow I will organize my closet again. It's a total mess again and I like to keep certain colors items on one stack. Otherwise I won't be able to see what I have and what I can wear.

Maybe I'll still make a post about my room since it's clean now and I'll (hopefuly) be moving out soon. Today I realized I should definitely take better care of my jewelry. I had it stored in the bathroom all along in one big box not even neatly organised. But now I found some earrings that were always gold but they were all rusty now. But I don't know maybe I like them better this way, better suited for mori kei also they now have this vintage look. 

I felt bad kind of bad today. I was insecure again and not really feeling happy. But my sister bought really delicious doughnut luckily so I'll just go eat some of them now.

Be sure to check out my wig post and I'll talk to you guys later.

It is made with the painting app on my computer.

Looks real doesn't it?

I like how these strokes are so like real paintings.

And yes this is a very abstract painting symbolizing my feelings atm.

My mind is really a mess lately I have been totally stressed out.

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Family Visit

Hello <3
Yesterday I went to my grandparents while the rest of the family was also there. It wasn't as bad as I expected. I had a lot of fun with my little niece. She was kind of hyperactive and wanted to play with everyone. She is such a cute kid ^^ my little nephew was a bit tired and was playing games on his mother's cellphone. but after a while I got bored and just broke in on their wifi XD but after that I was totally tired and too sucked up in my K-Pop video's that I forgot to blog :p

Today I went to my twinsister, we don't live in the same town anymore so I have to take the train to visit her. But everything went totally wrong. I was already late and when I finally stepped on my bicycle it turned out something was wrong with my wheel. So my mom brought me to the station and the last minute it turned out I didn't have the card you have to pay with to take the train. So we wanted to buy a ticket with money but the ticket-automat only accepted coins so we tried to change or buy a ticket at the office/loket whatever you call that, but they didn't try to help us. So we had 10 euro and had to buy two different things to get change we could use for the automat. It was a great pain in the *** and I even missed my train because of that. I really hate all those rude people.
And then I met my twinsister and we had some huge camera fails. I took her camera with me since it was still here since she moved out. First we discovered there wasn't a memory card inside and then we bought one since she wanted to take pictures very badly. But then her battery died and it was very depressing just the wrong timing. Then I gave her my Spotmatic but unfortunately there is some kind of defect in there too. I still don't know whatever it is but I'm still trying to find out. So finally I gave her my Sardina so she could still shoot some pictures too and I shot the roll in my Sprocket Rocket totally full.  Despite everything we had a great time. There was another ice slide again (we loved it previous year too) but the adults were reprimanding us :( we probably couldn't enjoy those things since we weren't six anymore. But yeah we paid 9 freaking buck for the entrance so better to enjoy ourselfs right?

After that we still went to do a little bit shopping, I only bought 1 set of elastics (they're so cute) from H&M and fitted a shirt I liked a while ago but wasn't in the color I wanted. But my sister didn't really like it so I decided not to buy it. When I came home I still went online to search for a new laptop since mine officially died a few days ago.

R.I.P. bad Laptop I won't freaking miss you cuz you wouldn't even let me edit my video's play dvd's or do whatever I wanted to do :(

And on a side note I totally love I got a boy from SNSD I totally love all their outfits and hairstyles. I am totally digging the green ombre hair, Sica's brown/blonde/pink/purple locks. Maybe ideas for next hairstyles for me ^^ and babo me even cried at the lyrics. I think they are very deep. This is their first song that has a deeper meaning right? It's about changing your personality for the person you love and trying to appear all perfect since he doesn't appreciate the real you. I'll be totally repeating this non-stop.
I really love Yoona's rap, the lyrics are especially portraying the part of trying to be all perfect to win someone's heart. This choreo is also killing and can't wait to learn it too. But I hope they do somewhat better live since I went almost deaf when I heard some performances of 'The Boys'. They have amazing vocals imo but somehow they don't get enough training, when they have performed the song more often it's always much better.

Xx

Fireworks & Boredom

Hello everybody~!!!
I want to sincerely wish everyone a new year <3

I am very tired now and I think I will go to bed once I finished the drama's that have been loading for the past afternoon. My internet was a total bitch and didn't let me watch my drama's :(

Today was not really anything special since I stayed a long time in bed again, I slept till late afternoon and then ate a lot of the new year's treats. I planned staying home but on the last minute I still decided to watch fireworks outside instead of from my window. And me and my little sister walked around in the neighbourhood but we live in this deserted town so everyone was inside their houses XD Later she picked up a friend who had the same name as me and we had a lot of fun even though they are a lot younger than me. I thought I would just lonely celebrating it all by myself but still 3 of my friends thought of me apparently. I felt so happy with their texts and even got a (sadly enough I missed it) call.
But my sister and I were outside experimenting with my Sardina. We tried lightpainting I ordered my sister to draw a heart and made another picture of her holding firework. I hope my firework photos come out a little bit nice because after a few shots I saw the focus was on macro. But well I will see how it turns out.
Tommorow I will be celebrating with my grandparents, aunt, uncle & their children. I don't like my family really much but I always love to play with my cousin and nephew. They are great subjects for photography too. But I'll let you guys know how it was.

Greetz for now and sleep tight everybody <3

Source: Lomography.com

Dramathons FTW

I have been doing totally nothing at all today and this vacation. I finished another drama again today hooray. It's 'The Devil'  and I already saw Maou, the Japanese version a long while ago. This one is much older and longer. But I really liked it too.
I am thinking about writing a post about the hits and misses on dramaland. I saw a list of the drama's that aired this year and I was actually pretty much stunned by how many I saw. It was really a lot. But if I can finish some more dramas this vacation I will most likely finish my 100th drama. *big achievement* but the most funny *cough cough totally not obsessed* is that I am somewhat more than 2 years addicted now. So that will mean I practically watched 50 in one year :o but before I make the list I still plan on watching 5 more popular dramas (school 2013, Reply 1997, Nice Man and more)

Tomorrow is already the last day of 2013 as you probably know :p That will mean lots of delicious food since I need to gain weight anyways and I can only eat that stuff once a year sadly enough.

I can't even think of any specific highlights of this year but it wasn't that great and I hope next year will be better. If I really have to think of highlight I would probably only name songs and drama's XD But well maybe I will make a list tomorrow if I'm still as bored as I am now. Or watch pretty fireworks. But probably not since that's late at night and I would have to get dressed and abandon my computer and Oppa's :'(

Almost wasted a week of vacation

Hello my lovelies <3
I was beginning to notice my sleeping pattern was really messed up. Lately I have been going to bed at 5 am or even later and slept till dinnertime. Because of my lack of proper meals I lack energy too. Today I got up a little past 1 pm and saw the daylight since ages hihi. It's getting dark so soon now in wintertime. So I took a long shower to wake up, it's the first thing I do when I have a day off and I'll just stay home in Pj's or comfy clothes all day long.
After that I just tried to relax since I had a fight with my mother again about my irritations towards her and my impatience to move out. I was already scheduled to move out somewhere this year but something went terribly wrong and I can't take it much longer.  After that I was pretty much stressed out and even found out I gained TWO freaking pounds. I know I have to gain weight and stuff but it was just a wrong timing and makes me a bit insecure about myself :(

Other (Mori) Girls NEVER follow my lead and just be happy and confident <3

I just went upstairs and isolated myself in my attic room once again, and yes that sounds lonely as hell but it's quiet there. I painted my toenails this lovely bright blue color. It was a present I got from some kind of Dutch Christmas celebration given by my little sister. Oh and besides that I still haven't told about the GREAT Xmas presents I received this year (including this kind of Dutch kind of xmas) My mother already promised to give me some extra money since I still needed to give my grandpa the money of his camera + flash. And on top of that she even got me my favorite manga. It's the Boys over Flowers part 17 and I absolutely adore this series I LOVE all the live-actions I'm such an addict. So I'll probably spend a lot of time giggling and obsessing about the amazingness off this book. I even found out that they don't sell it at the site I always purchase manga's that are not available in our comic store. But thinking about manga's I saw a pockets or bundles whatever you call them of the hana kimi series at my previous convention and didn't ask how much they were. I kind of regret not buying or not even asking what the price was *stupid me* but well hopefully I'll find them once again and have enough money at that time. I have the feeling I forgot to name one of my xmas presents *bad forgetful girl* but well I also got the most amazing Christmas card ever!!! It was a special created card from the person I'm in a (sadly enough fake) marriage with. I absolutely love her. It was a big A4 format card of a picture from Onew (SHINee) with a Santa hat.

Oh yeah lol I was telling about my afternoon :p
I wanted to finish some sewing projects but actually didn't even feel like carrying that big heavy sewing machine around. Lazy as hell don't blame me. So I stayed in bed again and watched some drama's. I've been so productive lately *cough cough* I already finished 4 whole drama's this vacation. I marathoned  Mr. Brain and Densha Otoko and watched the last episodes of Iris and My Girl since I started watching that a long time ago. I have the feeling I will still finish 5 or more before this vacation ends. I'm watching like 13 drama's currently. But I was really tired and didn't even eat a single thing so I fell asleep at 10 pm and woke up an hour later. But I think I really have to get to bed and not get my sleeping habits messed up again. Lol :p


Talk to you guys later <3
Xx

Planned items

-List with refreshing drama's
The drama cliches can get a little annoying sometimes,
but luckily there are still some refreshing dramas.

-New clothing items
I bought some new clothing pieces ^^

-Mori Girl drama characters

-Mori Kei essentials

-Mori Rooms
I want to search for some inspiration because I'll move out soon.
And help other Mori Girls who want to morify their room XD

-My developped pictures
Got my lomography pictures back and never think of uploading them :p

-Good Mori Books

-My (clothing) wishlist

-Something related to Lomography

-More posts about other japanese styles 
made some on my other blog already
-History and facts about Mori Kei?
In fact I know nothing about the origin of this style o.O
My self-made clothes
I've always been too lazy to take pictures D:
- A list with famous Mori Girls?
I want to look up if there are other famous Mori Girls/ Designers

hmm I hope this is enough to rise up your expectations ^^
My laptop crashed yesterday and I am currently borrowing my sisters macbook.
And i am really annoyed with this keyboard so don't expect too much posts.
Eventually my dream is to make this a daily blog but not sure if that's gonna happen anytime soon :(
Xx

Back from my one month hiatus~!!!

Hey everyone~

I'm finally back after my last post at the end of November. It's been such a long time. There has been a lot happening recently and I was feeling so bad I didn't even think about updating. So I'll tell you about all the bad and good things that happened last month so if you're interested read the post :p

To start off with the negative stuff I'll tell you shortly about these things first. Writing really helps me with finding a little peace in my mind but unfortunately I can't do it  when I am feeling too depressed. Recently a lot of bad stuff happened with me and my friends. I have always been bothered by my fatigue and I hardly do things that require getting out of bed except for school. Also last week a classmate committed suicide which made me feel completely broken. After that I lost 5 pound after eating nothing for a few days (which made me totally sick) And now I've been suffering from underweight even more. I am not a very big eater and when I encounter some kind of stress it results in me skipping meals and eating too less. I never get when girls deliberately try to starve theirself to look skinny. But on the bright side of this, I can eat a lot of chocolate and sweets to gain weight again.

However there were some good things that lightened my mood up a little bit. For example, I went shopping as I described in my last post. I bought 2 new sweaters. A brown one with sparkles and one with a panda and also a cute T-Shirt. I still want to upload pictures of stuff I bought and my outfits and such but I'm always to lazy to actually upload and my batteries are always dead when I want to take a picture. I also went to a Christmas Market in Oberhausen. I have to say it was very disappointing. I didn't have that much shopping money left and was a bit annoyed by my sister who couldn't stop talking about these expensive brands they sold there. I wasn't feeling that well either so it was a really hard day for me. I was also very excited for the concert tour of the K-Pop group A-Prince that would be coming to the Netherlands. I am so much in love with them. And I was so happy that I even got sick of excitement. However, they may cancel it due to selling too less tickets. And I am completely devastated after hearing that. I am completely in love with these boys, they aren't that popular since they only debuted one month ago. But I still have to see what they want to do and hope for the best.
I am also planning to cut my hair next year. I've been thinking about donating it for a very long time now. I think it's just the worst for a girl to be bald due to cancer or other sicknesses. And since re-blogging or liking pictures on Facebook and other sites won't help much I choose this option :p a lot of people are telling me not to do it because they like my hair long. But I definitely won't listen to them ^^ I have been thinking about getting the same hairstyle as Hyosung from Secret. It's just very simple, short hair with bangs. But it looks so gorgeous on her.

This was my comeback post for today ^^

I think I should make a short list of ideas of posts and if they're intresting enough I'll publish it to make you excited~!!!!

Xx